Q:Yo Evan, you posted on one of my i declare war videos a bit ago and you were the reason i liked i declare war! your riffs were great, i'm wondering do you have anything written for future? maybe a one man project? would like to hear more of your stuff! cheers!
Thank you very much. I’m definitely still proud of a lot of the music I wrote for the band. However, I’m very disappointed in how this current incarnation is blatantly butchering a lot of the music that myself and three other people worked our asses off for. It’s like no one cares. I think a cover band should at least play the songs correctly, right?
I’m not really sure where I’m at with music anymore to be honest. In fact, just today I was listening to a bunch of songs I wrote when I was in middle and high school and even though they kind of suck, I did it because I loved it. I haven’t had that much of a passion for music in a long time, and it actually kind of saddens me. I have a very difficult time writing nowadays even though I’m still very much interested in playing. I think a lot of my problem stems from being self-taught and at this point my brain is wired to only play one style when my main interest now is to branch out and learn new things. I would love to take some lessons and expand my knowledge, but since I’m still touring all the time I just haven’t had the time to dedicate to it. Every now and then I’ll mess around and record something but I haven’t had enough time to dedicate to really refining things or working with other people. I think I’ll have to stop touring before that happens.
That being said, whenever I do write something I post it on my Soundcloud, so head over there to check some of that stuff out. There are little song ideas as well as stuff I was writing for IDW before everything went down that never materialized into full songs. http://soundcloud.com/evantide
Thanks so much for continuing to enjoy it and for keeping interested in what I’m up to…it really means a lot that people are still interested even though the split with the band was a while ago.
People say “embrace life.” “Enjoy life.” “Just do it; live it; rock it.” Fuck it, because life is horrible. You know, I may not be so happy-go-lucky, but I’m a realist. Get ready to have your dreams dashed kids, because nothing is going to work out the way you think it’s going to.
I don’t know exactly what this song is meant to be about, but I’ve been thinking a lot about a few lines of it recently.
Till we’re all spinning round reaching for rings on this merry-go-round
Scenery spins, we call it progress
I’ve seen this all before
True progress means
matching the world to the vision in our heads
We always change the vision instead
The life I have made for myself reminds me of these lines. What some might call progress is in my eyes more of a stalemate; I’m just going to the same places, seeing the same things, doing the same things day in, day out. While you may argue that’s what any job is, the difference here is that I’m watching others progress around me. I’m still doing essentially the same thing I was doing four years ago. I’m turning 27 in a few weeks but I don’t feel like I’m any older than when I started touring because of how much I’ve put off of my real life to tour. I’m in this period of my life where everyone around me is getting engaged or having a baby or getting a dog or getting a promotion…all while I’m still kind of acting like a kid. Before you go making assumptions based on that, hear me out. First, I’m not dying to get married or have kids (in fact that’s the LAST thing on my mind right now). Second, I do still have fun and enjoy myself…but there’s a huge part of me that really wants something more. In the recent Whitechapel tour documentary, Alex perfectly and succinctly described the life of a touring professional: "It just kind of seems like the world is changing while you’re not."
I want to continue touring but I want my life to move forward as well. If you know about me at all you know how much I want a dog. With how my life is right now there’s no possible way for me to make that happen (alright, technically it is possible but it wouldn’t be fair to me or more importantly the dog). I want an apartment of my own. In the 8+ years that I’ve been out of high school (wow) I’ve never lived by myself. I’ve had anywhere from one to four roommates for my entire life. Living with people sucks. I
want need my own space, but paying that much money for a place I’ll rarely be in is flat out stupid if I’m on tour all the time. I want a stable income. I make enough money from touring to live off of for now, but it’s not at all stable. Paycheck here, paycheck there, live on what you can in between. Unless you’re touring nonstop, it’s incredibly unstable. And again, if you’re touring nonstop then you really have no other life. Not only is the pay unstable, but the touring world is so unpredictable anyway. I’ve already had two instances this year of tours I thought I’d be on not working out therefore me losing out on money that I was expecting to have.
The toughest part is figuring out what to move into. I have skills and past work experience, but nothing that’s really very lucrative or that thousands of other people also have experience for. The idea of returning to school is always on my mind, but that’s just another couple of years being eaten up as I approach 30, not to mention the financial aspects of it. I’m ready to start a life now, not in another few years.
Currently I am planning on being done just around a year from now; that all depends on what happens during this next year, of course. I thought I was going to be done in February of this year, then that turned into May, then that turned into summer of 2014. That’s the thing about touring that you don’t realize when you’re getting into it, and I’ve heard it from so many veterans of the road: it’s a trap. I’ve actually had one guy tell me “get out while you can.”
I guess we’ll just have to see what happens during the next twelve months…
Here’s just a tiny sample of the pictures I took in Europe this past month. Anyone interested in seeing the rest can view all of them in hi res here: http://www.flickr.com/photos/27326459@N03/sets/72157635215494727/